God I cant sit here and wish for the road not taken, for opportunities lost, I can only face the uncertainty of the future with the same enthusiasm and faith that has sustained me through all the ups and downs that have come my way.
Make me a man of my word, one who keeps his promise even when others have been so quick to forget, give me ability to fight for those I love and to be selfless when it calls for it, to be able to put their desires in front of mine.
Help me keep Your word close to my heart and with it let me live a life that makes you proud. Let me never settle for something less that what you would have me have. I try to explain to the people I love the desire I have for my dream but its hard for them to comprehend when there not in my shoes, so ask You to help them be patient and help me accomplish what I have set out to do and if they can't give me the strength to carry the weight of there disappointment until the day I can make them proud.
Lastly Thank You for making me who I am, with every trial I know accomplishment will come. I sometimes dream of my dream, a dream that became a reality, me on my knees thanking you as I do now. Sometimes its hard to see through the fog of doubt but am sure I will get there soon, so I say thank you, for now and for always.
The Gate Of The Year
“I said to the man who stood at the gate of the year, 'Give me a light that I may tread safely into the unknown.' And he replied, 'Go into the darkness and put your hand into the hand of God. That shall be to you better than light and safer than a known way!”
He often dreamt of starry nights in a foreign city far away from home, the feel of his knees as they kissed the floor thanking GOD for the journeys end and its new beginning. This is the reality he had dreamt of but still it was surreal, with a smile he thought to himself its true what they say, we dream but God usually surpasses our expectations. He looked at the floor and there besides his bed lay a battered soccer ball, " We've been through alot buddy but were finally here." he said. The sound of the clock ticked away 5:30 am and still no sleep, the excitement building up........practice session was too far and he felt like a fish out of the water if he wasn't on the pitch. He'd made it, not just for himself but for the people he loved.
The fulfillment of a dream is seen in the eyes of those you shared it with.
I stay up most nights contemplating how I can get better on the pitch, I think by now its become an obsession that only i can understand, each game on TV has become home work, research, my eyes keep on changing from player to player as though it were a fifa game and someone kept on pressing R1, makes me chuckle but i have learnt to accept that that's my passion and and my goal.
So whats the next step for me? simply put its grow and keep on believing that at some point God will provide me with an opportunity to make this dream a reality. i find myself smiling before i go to bed.......maybe that day will be tomorrow.
Don't stop fighting for your dream. Pray for the day it becomes reality and use each day before then to take a step closer to making it real. Grow.
We wake every day hoping to find new inspiration to chase our dreams, I ask for that each day because some days that desire you have in your heart seems so far but everyday God answers your doubts ever so softly.
I cant sing, my voice wasn't made to make people smile or amaze them but today I was inspired more than ever that you have to chase what makes you happy something that makes you glad to wake up. I was checking through my Facebook feed when I saw," the wonderful Maureen," she posted a youtube video of her and PLAY titled wish to far, i think the thing that got me first even before they started to sing is how happy she looked, her smile was infectious it made me want to smile to i would like to think its because she was doing something she loves and when she started singing...well words cant really say, cant describe how inspired i was.
so I'll say it again I cant sing, cant hold a note but am glad I have what she has as well something that makes me smile like her and that's not something you can just let go of easily but instead you push on and pray that someday God will bless you that each day might be one you wake up to knowing you didn't settle and that your doing something that you love. I would like to thank PLAY and Mau, sometimes even without knowing it people inspire others to hold on...if they can make it and do what they love....so can I.
last but not least like to say thanks to Tonya aka Nemesis first time i heard her on the radio couldn't stop grinning a few months before I heard her sing Alicia Keys empire state of mind, you have to understand its not easy going after your dream but seeing it materialise for someone who you knew was chasing it, makes you believe its just a matter of time till your there to.
Don't stop believing...dream with your eyes open, one day you will wake and that dream will be a reality.
PS: will listen to this every time before I start practice.
I've looked
into her eyes and oh what wondrous things I've seen. I've held her hands and
felt all my worries melt away. I've slumbered in her embrace and time has stood
still and forever known where home lay.
I've woken
up to her laughter and it rivaled the best orchestras. I've seen her cry and
within me a knight was born that I may battle all and never see sadness take
hold of her.
I've seen
the night sky and wished on every star, lost count of requests granted but the
origin all goes back to her smile that if each day I might be blessed with
it......yes I have seen her, the woman that holds my heart as she walks besides
me I become more of man, this lesson she has taught me. She has taught me her
worth.
My tribute to all women, woman. thank you for reminding us where our strength comes from.
There sometimes when I feel like there’s no one there who
understands, sometimes it feels like am alone, like am holding my breath under
water as long as I can and my lungs are about to give up on me. I guess this is
the path that I chose to go down, but why to the happy moments have to be so
far in between.
24 years have passed, if I had settled for mediocrity maybe I
would be content now with just making enough to get me by, waiting in line for
that promotion that I would have got or not at least that would be safe. I hate
days like these when all feels like a collapse, days when you feel that your
life thus far hasn't amounted to anything. Life is, was supposed to be
beautiful, it still is but why do doubts have to creep in, will my dream come
to pass, have I wasted all this time chasing after something that will never materialize why then does it make me so happy, why is it that my heart won’t
let it go.
To doubt myself is more less doubting the very fabric of who
I am who I want to be but I guess all I have to hold on to is faith. In my weak
moments such as these all I can do is believe and keep on working hard. I read somewhere
and it says.” Faith is like a bird that feels dawn approaching and sings while it’s
still dark.”
This is something I cannot give up on, it’s something that
apart from it I don’t know what life would be, the very thought of giving up
scares me. I hate days like these, I really do.
There days that your heart will be filled with doubts, days
when uncertainty will grow a voice and you will battle asking yourself will
this ever come through, is this the will of GOD for my life.
Last week my best friend and I were walking back from
practice near game lugogo, there’s a coffee place there that we swore we’d go when
we make it in life and this was another day gone and we were walking passed it,
same thoughts so I told him, “ Perry am tired of living this way am tired of
Uganda.” it’s not that I don’t love my country, I love it but I know in order
to accomplish my dreams I have to leave and its come to a point in my life when
I want to wake up knowing am going to do what I love. So I sat on a boda back
home and my mind was racing, asking myself questions of if all these years I've been chasing something that I won’t be able to attain and I asked GOD if this wasn't the path that I should take wouldn't he send me a sign of some sort. Life has
to be more than this, there has to be a chance that a man can have a dream and
be able to make it a reality.
So as the boda neared home I told myself instead of doubting
my faith, my dreams and above all the power of the most high I should be
thankful for how far I have come, all that I have and hold onto my faith. True
faith is Timeless; it can only be interrupted by two things....doubts or
manifestation: - Dave Meyer. So now
whenever doubt creeps up on me I remind myself of how far I have come, I let go
of the things I can’t handle and trust them to GOD, I learn to be excited for
tomorrow because it might be the day my dreams become a reality.
So whatever you’re going through hold out and have faith. No
situation is permanent just as the tides of the ocean, there times when the tides
will be high and they will be times when there low, guess this is another day
to keep fighting for this. BEAUTIFUL DAY PEOPLE.
All I want is to be free, to have the power to do what I
want when I want to, to take care of the ones I love and not worry about what
tomorrow brings...that’s what my brother said when I asked him what would be
his one wish if he had one. I guess that’s what everyone is looking for, to
break that chains that the world has on us, to find fulfillment in each day you’re
blessed with, to be able to make a difference in the lives of the people you’re
close to.
There’s nothing in my opinion that hurts than to be
powerless to help, sometimes days come that we fill powerless but it’s always
been hard to give up on something that you want even when people tell you
different, so we push on looking for that escape that freedom that will grant
us peace, different countries, different languages, different dreams but one
goal.........to be free.
So that’s what I want for myself and I guess for
everyone, guess that’s what makes life
precious, that you don’t get to do a redo or have a ground hogs day.......so
you live fighting to get out of the rat race. The beauty is that impossibility
is a state of mind, we can break free and someday I will be free.
Ps: I just pictured myself sitting on a horse and reciting
every word from brave heart lol....but the best quote in that movie must be
this. “Your heart is free, have the courage to follow it.”
Lately I’ve been reading a book by Bill Hybels entitled who
you are when no one’s looking and it’s opened my eyes to most of my short
comings in my life so just wanted to share the part that stood out for me and
how it relates to my life. Wikipedia defines delayed gratification generally as the act associated with resisting a smaller but more
immediate reward in order to receive a larger or more enduring reward later,
with that said if your close to me then you basically know what I want to
become but the thing is all this time I have been praying and just waiting for
the miracle to fall on my lap without doing the work that would make my dream a
possibility. Usually we fall in love with certain things that take our breath
away but we then fall victims to our own laziness or depression because we don’t
know how we will achieve what we think is so out of reach.
The first thing that should
spar us on is the love its self for whatever we want to be, where ever we want
to go, instead of looking at the problem we should find the solution, in my
case I need to be physically fit in order to do what I love but when the
morning comes and I have to go for my morning jog then my inner battle starts
to rage, the sheets are too comfy I tell myself, just ten more minutes, or
better yet I went yesterday so I guess I can rest today but that’s where we
need delayed gratification, the discipline to say to our bodies, whatever
situation where in, you know what I have to go through this jog so I reap what I
sow, I have to work harder so I can go for that trip that I want to go so bad, don’t
let the situation rule you find a solution and start on the path to implement
it.
Last but not least and this
is the most important thing I have learnt, no situation is bigger than God,
trust in him to lead you, to give you strength when your body fails you, when
your making excuses, let him handle the bigger problems just do your part. The world
lucks dreamers, don’t be afraid to dream, take steps each day to make what is a
dream a reality, never settle for second best, push through and work hard and
some day it will dawn and you will find that you are the person you were
dreaming of......apply delayed gratification in your life....I am.
So leaving you with song its
playful and livens up my mood when am sad....be blessed people.
