DOUBTS

There days that your heart will be filled with doubts, days when uncertainty will grow a voice and you will battle asking yourself will this ever come through, is this the will of GOD for my life.

Last week my best friend and I were walking back from practice near game lugogo, there’s a coffee place there that we swore we’d go when we make it in life and this was another day gone and we were walking passed it, same thoughts so I told him, “ Perry am tired of living this way am tired of Uganda.” it’s not that I don’t love my country, I love it but I know in order to accomplish my dreams I have to leave and its come to a point in my life when I want to wake up knowing am going to do what I love. So I sat on a boda back home and my mind was racing, asking myself questions of if all these years I've been chasing something that I won’t be able to attain and I asked GOD if this wasn't the path that I should take wouldn't he send me a sign of some sort. Life has to be more than this, there has to be a chance that a man can have a dream and be able to make it a reality.

So as the boda neared home I told myself instead of doubting my faith, my dreams and above all the power of the most high I should be thankful for how far I have come, all that I have and hold onto my faith. True faith is Timeless; it can only be interrupted by two things....doubts or manifestation: - Dave Meyer.  So now whenever doubt creeps up on me I remind myself of how far I have come, I let go of the things I can’t handle and trust them to GOD, I learn to be excited for tomorrow because it might be the day my dreams become a reality.

So whatever you’re going through hold out and have faith. No situation is permanent just as the tides of the ocean, there times when the tides will be high and they will be times when there low, guess this is another day to keep fighting for this. BEAUTIFUL DAY PEOPLE.

FREEDOM

All I want is to be free, to have the power to do what I want when I want to, to take care of the ones I love and not worry about what tomorrow brings...that’s what my brother said when I asked him what would be his one wish if he had one. I guess that’s what everyone is looking for, to break that chains that the world has on us, to find fulfillment in each day you’re blessed with, to be able to make a difference in the lives of the people you’re close to.

There’s nothing in my opinion that hurts than to be powerless to help, sometimes days come that we fill powerless but it’s always been hard to give up on something that you want even when people tell you different, so we push on looking for that escape that freedom that will grant us peace, different countries, different languages, different dreams but one goal.........to be free.

So that’s what I want for myself and I guess for everyone,  guess that’s what makes life precious, that you don’t get to do a redo or have a ground hogs day.......so you live fighting to get out of the rat race. The beauty is that impossibility is a state of mind, we can break free and someday I will be free.

Ps: I just pictured myself sitting on a horse and reciting every word from brave heart lol....but the best quote in that movie must be this. “Your heart is free, have the courage to follow it.”

Delayed Gratification

Lately I’ve been reading a book by Bill Hybels entitled who you are when no one’s looking and it’s opened my eyes to most of my short comings in my life so just wanted to share the part that stood out for me and how it relates to my life. Wikipedia defines delayed gratification generally as the act  associated with resisting a smaller but more immediate reward in order to receive a larger or more enduring reward later, with that said if your close to me then you basically know what I want to become but the thing is all this time I have been praying and just waiting for the miracle to fall on my lap without doing the work that would make my dream a possibility. Usually we fall in love with certain things that take our breath away but we then fall victims to our own laziness or depression because we don’t know how we will achieve what we think is so out of reach.

The first thing that should spar us on is the love its self for whatever we want to be, where ever we want to go, instead of looking at the problem we should find the solution, in my case I need to be physically fit in order to do what I love but when the morning comes and I have to go for my morning jog then my inner battle starts to rage, the sheets are too comfy I tell myself, just ten more minutes, or better yet I went yesterday so I guess I can rest today but that’s where we need delayed gratification, the discipline to say to our bodies, whatever situation where in, you know what I have to go through this jog so I reap what I sow, I have to work harder so I can go for that trip that I want to go so bad, don’t let the situation rule you find a solution and start on the path to implement it.

Last but not least and this is the most important thing I have learnt, no situation is bigger than God, trust in him to lead you, to give you strength when your body fails you, when your making excuses, let him handle the bigger problems just do your part. The world lucks dreamers, don’t be afraid to dream, take steps each day to make what is a dream a reality, never settle for second best, push through and work hard and some day it will dawn and you will find that you are the person you were dreaming of......apply delayed gratification in your life....I am.

So leaving you with song its playful and livens up my mood when am sad....be blessed people.