COME FORTH NEW YEAR

Life.....it’s a beautiful thing, the uncertainty that comes with each day, the preciousness of your next breath, quantifiable in words or numbers.

Time spent trying to find meaning in our existence, dreams sparing us on to the finish line that is a smile that might just last more than a minute.

So this year has come to an end and hopes that should have bore fruit are still clinging to the branch that is my heart, like a tree my roots are still planted strongly in the ground, my faith food to the leaves that are my hopes, desires....my life with a prayer that soon they will create a shade strong enough for those I love, that is what I seek.

So come forth new year, hold my hand and lead me to that finish line and although I know this journey will be long and hard, nothing worthwhile comes easy, one thing I have learnt is that good things come to those who wait......on GOD, so I will wait.

PS: dear reader it’s been a long year full of huddles, some I jumped over and some I fell, perfection isn’t in me or us but still I search for it, that the day might come when reality is a mirror image of my dream......it’s something worth waking up to, and I hope that as your year ends your heart is content. If not push on like I am.........soon something will change.

                                                        Merry Christmas and a Happy new year.

writers block

All good things come to those who wait..........on GOD. If you ever find something that makes you smile, laugh and sometimes cry because it’s the perfect definition of the word love.....it truly is a gift from the Heavens. It seems that each day that goes by am learning to be more appreciative of the things I have at this very moment am not where I want to be but am glad that am not where I was.

I wish I could write words every time that would keep you glued to this screen, but I guess there some parts of this story that are yet to be written, yet to be understood before laying them down onto this, seems am starting to bubble so will end this entry here, just thought I would update my blog.

THE STORY

My hand will always be outstretched waiting for your reach, clasp it and let the warmth it bears remind you  of home regardless of where we are and if the days ahead are filled with uncertainty, find peace knowing that I will brave the unchartered moments of life by your side.

Let me be the reflection that stares back at you and gives you courage to get you through just as you are mine. Words have always been beautiful if these cut to reach your soul, if they touch your heart and by chance be just one reason it beats even once, then they would have done their job but atlas I hope that in our old age you can say, “my man was a man of action”, That where my words failed me my actions carried us through to new heights.

I have been blessed to find love; I have been blessed to find you my confidant, my friend, my other half. My only regret is that I did not find you earlier, that the time I lost cannot be replaced but again I say my hand will always be outstretched waiting for yours that is our story.

     

THE THOUGHT OF GIVING UP

Last Sunday I lay on my back bleeding from my mouth running my tongue through my teeth to check if I had lost one of my teeth, my upper lip had split and I knew something was wrong with my left big toe...I guess you can tell when there's something wrong. I think I had blacked it in the middle of the fall, all I could remember was the ball coming towards me, I saw Alvin running for the flick on I jumped and boom next time I open my eyes am on the floor and all it took was 5 minutes....I had been on the pitch for 5 minutes!!!!

Four weeks before give or take I got an mcl grade two tear(medial collateral ligament) grade 2 for those who don't know is when u partially tear the ligament on your knee and well it hurts and you have to be out for four to 8  weeks and that was our 1st pre-season game. So there' me lying on my back bleeding and thinking Junior maybe it’s time for you to give up on this dream, obviously things aren't going well, am busting my chops off to be in the best shape I can be but injury after injury maybe, I dare not say but maybe I should give up.

Now you have to understand for me to even think that is taboo in my mind, football to me is like water to a fish. fish - water = death, OK I wouldn't die but it would take what I think and know is my identity, I believe that GOD gave everyone something that makes them happy regardless of the circumstance or would like to think that you do, well to me that's football, to be honest I don't think I have found anything in my life that rivals the feeling of scoring a goal, don't know if that's a bad thing but I can’t explain it, its magical!! So after the ref saw that I wasn't getting up and maybe the sight of blood on my shirt he blew the whistle they carried me off tried to patch my lip which I must say looked horrible, I told one of the coaches there's something wrong with my toe, so they removed my ADIDAS fair plays( Adidas hope you see that am endorsing you lol)  removed my socks and guess what, my big toe is dislocated facing the opposite direction and the dude that's working on me has the nerve to ask....is that how your toe normally looks!!!!??? Because am in pain I don't really have my sarcastic answer so I say no, he rubs some stuff on it and then snaps it back!

so not to drag on I felt really down that all that had happened but read somewhere that when your almost about to give up is when your break through is around the corner, so I guess what am trying to say is that a lot of things happen to us one after another and sometimes we get the thought of giving up but don't tie a knot and hold on sooner than later it will get better. 3 days after the whole ordeal I was back to practice, my lip still looks like a bad lip job lol but will survive am thankful that it wasn't a major injury and still chasing that elusive first season goal and its coming soon. BE BLESSED.

DREAMS.....FAITH

Dreams don’t come true in a day, they take you through a journey of meandering mazes, there always ups and downs so much that your mind tells you to quit but your heart tells you to hold on. Dreams are not for the ration of minds there for those who dare to see color in a world that perceives all in black and white, there for the bruised knees that have found warmth on the cold floor quietly speaking to God to give them strength to carry on, for the people who work through ridicule and push on regardless of the tones of the mockers. Don’t get me wrong we worry day and night, doubts creeps in so much that your only companion are the warm tears that run down your cheek but truth is where we fail we know that God wont...its human to err but not Gods.

So I don’t know the most important times and days of my life, not when I will hold my first born and be proud or when I will put pen to paper...that first contract but I guess that’s why we have faith...to believe in things we do not see and that’s what dreams need for days and nights will pass without an answer but one day faith will get you through, so never give up on your dream life’s to precious to settle for second best so this time open your eyes and dream with them open sooner or later reality will change.

all smiles....endless laughter

I find that the best moments of my life are when am laughing, the times when my ribs ache and i have to hold my breath and ask the people around me to help me while tears stream down my face, usually they look at me like what the heck is going on but when the persistent laughter carries on they usually just join in and laugh with me. I wish though that those moments of life weren't so far apart......an apple a day.... i say no, a laughter like that a day would make my days so much better literally plus my wisdom tooth is acting up so cant really eat an apple at the moment but gas me up with laughing gas three times a day...that is of course the normal prescription from that doctor?? yes? I did Google it so am sure it is!!!

i guess my point is that laugh as hard as you can, surround yourself with people that make you smile people who make each day feel like that uncontrollable, wild laughter put you on your knees. I cant say I know too much about life still learning ins and outs of my own but am glad to say that am surrounded by people who make my life an experience filled with love and moments of smiles and.......endless laughter. So while am figuring out the rest one thing is for certain am blessed.

gangnamstyle

So usually when am walking through town a lot of random stuff runs through my mind, like what if I could read people's minds, like that guy who just passed me by and was looking at his phone and he smiled... hmm curious what the text was...so that's where the mind power comes in but not only that I think am fascinated by musicals and in my head am "gleeful"( i hide it well, not a thing a guy should admit but oh well guilty pleasures) and how cool would it be if you could be just walking around and suddenly gangnam style started playing and all of the sudden your in the middle of town city square and everyone around is gangnam styling, cps guys come rushing down with tear gas and started hoping around too, Besigye gangnam styling the walk to work??? Common people am sure that would be a far more better way to fight for his cause???...I think plus he would get a far better work out with that than he ever did with the walk to work thing maybe get all the tear gas out of his lungs lol but yeah one of these days am going to go for it.......Agnes on ntv will report live lol. 

Apart from that its Wednesday today, hustle still on.....from the words of wale..."easy dream to dream a dream but harder to live it", with those words hope you have an awesome week. GANGNAM.....OUT!

Letting go of the past I guess is never an easy thing for one to do mainly because we live impressions with the actions we do and sooner or later those actions define us to the on lookers. Read something one of my friends twitted, was actually a re-tweet from Joyce Meyer that said, "God accepts you as you are, but He doesn't want you to stay the way you are."  We live in a world where everything is about impression and how people perceive you so much that sometimes you might not walk the path that's designed for you but one that you think other people will most appreciate you for. How simple would it be to wake up in the morning and not have to ruffle through endless clothes to find the right outfit or wake up with a clear conscious knowing your doing something you love, that regardless of what people say or do you live your life exempt of there opinion. So i guess its another day, another week passes and wont let what happened yesterday define who i am today.........I choose to be my own person.... unique in every way, for it must Have been HIS intention when HE made me. Have a new beginning.