Dreams

Let's close our eyes and dream of days consummated with evening sunsets and stary nights.

Let our bellies bellow with laughter so loud that it reverberates through the distance soo contagious its whipers joy to everyone willing to live. Let's fight for friendships uncorrupted by time nor distance.

Yes, let us live, let us let our imaginations run wild untamed by scrutiny for the world hates what it cannot understand.

And if you can only hope with me, never let doubt dig too deep to unravel this beautiful thing called Faith, for there will always be stares and voices non to comforting but familiar and yet nothing good ever comes easy and that is a lesson appreciation teaches.

So find solace in the peace that a beautiful prayer brings, for when our knees kiss the floor then mountains are moved. That is the lesson am learning.

REMIND ME OF YOUR GREATNESS

He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High
will abide in the shadow of the Almighty.
I will say to the LORD, “My refuge and my fortress,
my God, in whom I trust.”

For he will deliver you from the snare of the fowler
and from the deadly pestilence.
He will cover you with his pinions,
and under his wings you will find refuge;
his faithfulness is a shield and buckler.
You will not fear the terror of the night,
nor the arrow that flies by day,
nor the pestilence that stalks in darkness,
nor the destruction that wastes at noonday.

A thousand may fall at your side,
ten thousand at your right hand,
but it will not come near you.
You will only look with your eyes
and see the recompense of the wicked.

Because you have made the LORD your dwelling place—
the Most High, who is my refuge—
no evil shall be allowed to befall you,
no plague come near your tent.

For he will command his angels concerning you
to guard you in all your ways.
On their hands they will bear you up,
lest you strike your foot against a stone.
You will tread on the lion and the adder;
the young lion and the serpent you will trample underfoot.

“Because he holds fast to me in love, I will deliver him;
I will protect him, because he knows my name.
When he calls to me, I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble;
I will rescue him and honor him.
With long life I will satisfy him
and show him my salvation.” 

I want to be reminded each day of how great  a God you are, that even with the battles that wage inside me and the worries that uncertainty, doubt or disappointment bring I am truly loved by you.

I know that I shouldn't let the situations that am in ever let me despair, forgive me when I cry, when am afraid and again remind me that even before I was, you set aside a beautiful plan for my life, you blessed me so I could bless those that I love and you supply me with the strength that I need to face each day and to be confident in myself and above all to hold onto my faith, cherishing it, nurturing it because it is my faith in you that gives me life.

The past few days haven’t been easy, too many questions remain unanswered but I have to trust that you are never late. That is what I hold on to; give me the patience to wait and to not give up. There will come a day when all will be as it should be and this will be just a distant memory. It will be a testimony that you Lord are faithful to those who wait on you.

The Lords Hand

God I cant sit here and wish for the road not taken, for opportunities lost, I can only face the uncertainty of the future with the same enthusiasm and faith that has sustained me through all the ups and downs that have come my way.

Make me a man of my word, one who keeps his promise even when others have been so quick to forget, give me ability to fight for those I love and to be selfless when it calls for it, to be able to put their desires in front of mine.

Help me keep Your word close to my heart and with it let me live a life that makes you proud. Let me never settle for something less that what you would have me have. I try to explain to the people I love the desire I have for my dream but its hard for them to comprehend when there not in my shoes, so ask You to help them be patient and help me accomplish what I have set out to do and if they can't give me the strength to carry the weight of there disappointment until the day I can make them proud.

Lastly Thank You for making me who I am, with every trial I know accomplishment will come. I sometimes dream of my dream, a dream that became a reality, me on my knees thanking you as I do now. Sometimes its hard to see through the fog of doubt but am sure I will get there soon, so I say thank you, for now and for always.

The Gate Of The Year

“I said to the man who stood at the gate of the year, 'Give me a light that I may tread safely into the unknown.' And he replied, 'Go into the darkness and put your hand into the hand of God. That shall be to you better than light and safer than a known way!”

― Minnie Louise Haskins

Composition by ludovico Einaudi - Divenire

 

Grow

He often dreamt of starry nights in a foreign city far away from home, the feel of his knees as they kissed the floor thanking GOD for the journeys end and its new beginning. This is the reality he had dreamt of but still it was surreal, with a smile he thought to himself its true what they say, we dream but God usually surpasses our expectations. He looked at the floor and there besides his bed lay a battered soccer ball, " We've been through alot buddy but were finally here." he said. The sound of the clock ticked away 5:30 am and still no sleep, the excitement building up........practice session was too far and he felt like a fish out of the water if he wasn't on the pitch. He'd made it, not just for himself but for the people he loved.

The fulfillment of a dream is seen in the eyes of those you shared it with.
I stay up most nights contemplating how I can get better on the pitch, I think by now its become an obsession that only i can understand, each game on TV has become home work, research, my eyes keep on changing from player to player as though it were a fifa game and someone kept on pressing R1, makes me chuckle but i have learnt to accept that that's my passion and and my goal.

So whats the next step for me? simply put its grow and keep on believing that at some point God will provide me with an opportunity to make this dream a reality. i find myself smiling before i go to bed.......maybe that day will be tomorrow.

Don't stop fighting for your dream. Pray for the day it becomes reality and use each day before then to take a step closer to making it real. Grow.

INSPIRATION

We wake every day hoping to find new inspiration to chase our dreams, I ask for that each day because some days that desire you have in your heart seems so far but everyday God answers your doubts ever so softly.

I cant sing, my voice wasn't made to make people smile or amaze them but today I was inspired more than ever that you have to chase what makes you happy something that makes you glad to wake up. I was checking through my Facebook feed when I saw," the wonderful Maureen," she posted a youtube video of her and PLAY titled wish to far, i think the thing that got me first even before they started to sing is how happy she looked, her smile was infectious it made me want to smile to i would like to think its because she was doing something she loves and when she started singing...well words cant really say, cant describe how inspired i was.

so I'll say it again I cant sing, cant hold a note but am glad I have what she has as well something that makes me smile like her and that's not something you can just let go of easily but instead you push on and pray that someday God will bless you that each day might be one you wake up to knowing you didn't settle and that your doing something that you love. I would like to thank PLAY and Mau, sometimes even without knowing it people inspire others to hold on...if they can make it and do what they love....so can I. 

last but not least like to say thanks to Tonya aka Nemesis first time i heard her on the radio couldn't stop grinning a few months before I heard her sing Alicia Keys empire state of mind, you have to understand its not easy going after your dream but seeing it materialise for someone who you knew was chasing it, makes you believe its just a matter of time till your there to.

Don't stop believing...dream with your eyes open, one day you will wake and that dream will be a reality.   

PS: will listen to this every time before I start practice.

HAPPY WOMEN'S DAY.....HER WORTH

I've looked into her eyes and oh what wondrous things I've seen. I've held her hands and felt all my worries melt away. I've slumbered in her embrace and time has stood still and forever known where home lay.

I've woken up to her laughter and it rivaled the best orchestras. I've seen her cry and within me a knight was born that I may battle all and never see sadness take hold of her.

I've seen the night sky and wished on every star, lost count of requests granted but the origin all goes back to her smile that if each day I might be blessed with it......yes I have seen her, the woman that holds my heart as she walks besides me I become more of man, this lesson she has taught me. She has taught me her worth.

My tribute to all women, woman. thank you for reminding us where our strength comes from.

BAD DAYS

There sometimes when I feel like there’s no one there who understands, sometimes it feels like am alone, like am holding my breath under water as long as I can and my lungs are about to give up on me. I guess this is the path that I chose to go down, but why to the happy moments have to be so far in between.

24 years have passed, if I had settled for mediocrity maybe I would be content now with just making enough to get me by, waiting in line for that promotion that I would have got or not at least that would be safe. I hate days like these when all feels like a collapse, days when you feel that your life thus far hasn't amounted to anything. Life is, was supposed to be beautiful, it still is but why do doubts have to creep in, will my dream come to pass, have I wasted all this time chasing after something that will never materialize  why then does it make me so happy, why is it that my heart won’t let it go.

To doubt myself is more less doubting the very fabric of who I am who I want to be but I guess all I have to hold on to is faith. In my weak moments such as these all I can do is believe and keep on working hard. I read somewhere and it says.” Faith is like a bird that feels dawn approaching and sings while it’s still dark.”

This is something I cannot give up on, it’s something that apart from it I don’t know what life would be, the very thought of giving up scares me. I hate days like these, I really do.